December 2008


After the meet with Ms.Shoba, I decided not to end what I had started. The law suit I mean. What were you guys thinking??

Ok call me stupid, call me whatever but the decision has been made. I mean…we only go to some much extent if and only if a person is worth every penny of it, no? Of coz it would have resorted in him paying my legal fees but hey lets not even go in there alright.

What I mean is, kenapa perlu bersusah payah melakukan sesuatu just to get back sedangkan orang tuh bukannya significant mana kan. Apa aku dapat kalo dia hilang keje dia? Apa aku dapat kalo dia kena bayar aku pampasan kan? No, I don’t want any of it. It’s not easy to make me satisfied with something and if I do something, I wanna see it go all the way.

But I have a story to tell. Yes I do.

On a lighter note, I’m getting my new car tomorrow! Yippie!! Yippie!!! And…and jeng jeng jeng…I’m going to TOKYO! TOKYO! TO-KY-O!! Lets drift together ok. Drift drift drift!!

Ok peeps.

Today is the day where I am revealing the aftermath of what had happened.

Like a bout 20 minutes ago, my ‘mak angkat’ sent me a msg.

Bunyik nya mcm nie… ” It is a shame i have to disown you as anak angkat’.

Terkejut tak? Terkejut kan. Ok lah so I balas lah…”Aunty, all I did was add a line to what happened. If I didn’t say that, he would have never acknowledge that it did. It’s a problem that *Melissa doesn’t want to hear me out. It’s easy for people to judge but why judge without listening to the whole story? Takpelah aunty, thank you for everything. And too uncle too. When *Melissa does want to know what happened, I will tell”.

Aunty balas lagik…”I don want to know and i do not want anything to do wth both of u. Leave *Melissa out of this k”.

I replied…”Ok lah aunty i will. But can you please tell me what i did wrong?”.

It’s been 20 minutes. Still no reply. I boleh accept orang nak benci I tapi I nak jugak lah kan tau the reason. Get the facts straight dulu sebelum nak menjaja cerita.

Aunty, if you do read this…this is what I want to say to you. No one else ok so yang lain tuh shut the hell up.

“You nak disown me, I tak kesah. Yes sedih, memang sedih but what can I do kan? Takkan nak paksa kalau orang dah tak suka. But at least dengar lah dulu what I have to say. Things are not what it seems to be tau sekarang nie. Everybody deserves a chance to speak. *Melissa has and I sure *Liar has as well. Then, macam tuh jer? What about my side of the story pulak? Kalau betul lah even before this you anggap I as anak angkat, at least you’ll give me quarter of the privilege you give your own daughter and that is to hear me out too. But I guess not”.

Korang mesti pelik kan apesal tetiba plak leh jadik camnie?

Aku tak pelik. Sebab aku tau apa yang telah terjadi. Korang nak tau?

I will type out the whole story sini. Biarlah membuka aib sesiapa pon.

*Melissa is not her real name. Names have been changed coz I will reveal all soon enough.

First and foremost, thank you Za. Thanks for accompanying me to the ‘blue house’ (Boleh tak perempuan nie panggil balai polis blue house?? kahkahkahkah gelak pecah perut aku).

So after spending the whole Monday (yerr aku tak gie keje sebab nak setel benda nie lah!) running around settling this ‘case’, I finally settled down at her office @ Jalan Conlay. Suddenly I gelabah. Ah sudah, mana aku simpan laptop aku?? Hish takkan kat kete kot?? Hish takkan kena rompak kot?

Za dah nampak dah muka I pucat. Selamba badak jer boleh tanya ‘whats with you? You look like you’ve seen a ghost. Chill ok, we’ll get this finalized in no time’.

Walamak kau! Aku gelabah laptop aku hilang. Bukannya pasal case cibai nie.

Rupanya P.A dia yang tolong simpankan. Siap dengan charger dia angkut. Ya lah I forgot. When I reached her office, I on lah laptop tuh. Coz she was with a client so I main lah mob wars kejap-kejap. Then she came out, terus grab my hand. Katanya dah set appointment dengan pakcik biru so takleh lambat. I pon ikut je lah.

Phewww. Mau I kejung lah hilang laptop tuh.

Ok so back to the story-mory. I know a few people yang nampak Za and me on Monday dah tanya-tanya dah what happened.

Truth is, still in the process of making up my mind. Actually, Nas lah yang suruh buat report.

Ah persetankan semua ini.

Tapi…the truth must be heard no?

Yes!!

Tapi… ahhh takde tapi tapi.

Bak kata Za…

“Sometimes we makes decisions that we know will be hard on ourselves. At times, even humiliated. But we still go ahead with it because that it that. I have known so many people who will go to the extend of exposing every single bit of their dirty laundry just so they could protect someone they love. You. Do not regret! Do not regret even a single bit! What has happened, has a reason to it. Maybe it has tarnished your image. Maybe it has made you looked down on. But someone has been saved in the process. Even though you have been ripped apart. Some else has got back her life because of what you chose to reveal. Someone else has a better future. Do not regret”.

Yes Za.

I agree with you. Better now than later kan?

To the rest of you who reads this blog, I know you’re in the lurched. When the time comes, I will reveal.

At this moment of time, my lawyer says “zip it!”.

I feel bad. I have to tell 2 hot Korean mothers that their kids will only be assessed first week of January. Kesian kan.

I mean, kita orang susah, kita paham lah susah senang nak uruskan transfer and all.

Orang senang je cakap “it’s not my concern”.

Ko cakap senang lah. Cuba jadik kat ko. Gerenti melalak keluar air mata darah.

*kacau betul lah telephone nie*

Hish susah lah cakap dengan orang tak paham bahasa. Ko paham tak?? Aku cakap biar ku check dulu nanti aku call engkau balik lah. Apa bengap sangat nie??

Lempang kang nak?

Ok what was I saying? Oh lupakan je lah. Eh, bunyi telepon mati. Gerenti bateri flat.

Haaaa website sugarsboutique dah up and running. Big thanks to Kucing Kelabu. Honestly, they’re awesome (and no Nadia, I’m not being bias here).

Besok lepas kerja ada dinner kat rumah mat salleh nie haa. Nak pergi  ke tak nak haa?

Kalau pergi, tatau jalan lah plak. Kalo tak pergi, kecik hati org plak kan. Wahduh susahnya nak buat life or death decisions nie. Hahahahaha silalah muntah. Camtuh pon nak kusut kepala  ke?? Kan? Kan? Gerenti ramai org nak muntah baca blog nie.

Sebenarnya aku pon nak muntah baca blog nie. Oh haaa nak citer. My car berhantu lah. Memang, serius berhantu!!

Kan I dah kunci kete kan. Then the car automatically kunci, bukak, kunci, bukak, kunci, bukak. Boleh dengar. Ketak. Ketak. Ketak. Ketak. Ketak tuh bunyik lock dengan unlock lah. Korang guna imaginasi sket leh tak? Hek eleh time  melancap elok je nak bayangkan Wentworth Miller lah (eh macam fantasy aku jer…), Sienna Miller lah, nak suruh imagine bunyi punyalah nak eksyen tak dapat konon.

Wentworth Miller is hot lah. Nak jer aku cakap “do me now baby”. Untuk hubby aku, aku takkan layan request fetish dia tapi untuk you baby, nak suruh jadik ahli gimnast negara pon I sanggup.

“What’s that? Sorry can’t hear you. Oh you want me to dress like a bunny? It’s my fury tail you like? Sure thing honey, just don’t get any ‘fur’ in your mouth”. Hihihihihi *gelak gatal*

Jangan nak tipu. Tipu dosa ok. Sex is good. No wait. Nak blend in sket. Sex itu sedap.

Eh, apesal ada yang tetiba nak mandi tuh? Ohhh…layan shower head rupanya….kekekekekeke *gelak gatal lagi*

wentworth_miller_lit

Aku bahagia imagine aku atas tilam tuh…Pssttt siapa ada gambar telanjang si Wentworth nie? Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Kowang kan suka tak kalo kena rip off dengan kawan? Gerenti tak suka kan? Mesti berapi kan sampai berasap lubang hidung tuh.

Haaa camtuh lah aku rasa. Dah lah hilang beberapa minggu, alih-alih aku muncul balik dengan perasaan marah yang agak membina lah jugak.

Aku sangatlah tak suka ‘kawan’ yang amik kesempatan. Macam nie lah, pendek kata aku paham ko nak carik makan. Aku pon nak carik makan. Tapi bukanlah kawan makan kawan. Aku makan awek ko nak?? Tak nak kan. Haa tau takpe.

Lepas tuh ada hati plak si koncit nie nak sabo aku plak dengan keinginan untuk membatukan kawan aku lagik sorang nie supaya mengambil kesempatan plak ke atas diriku yang lemah ini (ya silalah muntah ok).

I just don’t get it!

Wehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aku tak suka. TAK SUKA. TAK SUKA!

Bhai, kalo tak ready nak buat business, jangan buatlah. Ko pi study market dulu ler. Sebab aku nie bukan trial & error ko! Aku bayar guna duit laki aku aku bukannya bayar dengan bulu!

Bayar ngan bulu takpe gak dak. Tunggu 3 bulan, dah panjang dah, aku cabut pastuh kasik ko lah beberapa helai buat bayaran.

Satu je nasihat kat ‘kawan’ camnie. Nak buat bisnes biarlah ikhlas, hati ko mulia gerenti byk bisnes roll in. Nie ko desperate nak duit, buatlah gaya desperat (nie bukan spelling error ok. Payah lah bila ada cikgu-cikgi baca blog, tak pepasal kena kutuk). Beggers can’t be choosers tau. Jangan pk nak ketuk member je memanjang. Tak berkat wooooo duit tuh.

Last but not least, janganlah jadik anjing dengan bayang-bayangnya. Orang tamak selalu sangatlah rugi. Ko tak tengok ke drama-drama kat TV? Kan ada derang kasik pengajaran cenggitu.

Ok lah, aku nak main facebook ngan  Uncle Mat. Mob wars, ada gaklah aku nak merasa jadik mafia kan. Baru tadik aku amik upah dari boss jadik hitman. Jangan aku yang muncul dalam hitlist sudah.