Tarikh di atas…sungguh significant. It’s the date that has changed my life forever. No longer just a wife. I’m now a mom.

On 19.12.2009, I gie lah check up mcm biasa. Dr check and said placenta dah matured. Nak induce labour next week. So to be prepared by Monday, the clinic will call and give me a date. He wanted to wait a few more days to check on the baby’s heart beat.

Jadiknya on the same day itself, I still lagik aktif berjalan and bawak kete sini sana. Siap naik tangga turun tangga lagik :p

Tetiba on Sunday morning (20.12.2009), at around 7am, I dah rasa ada contraction sket. Lain macam plak sakit nie. Cepat-cepat I mandi, paksa Nas and my mom siap-siap, nak gie Roopi. My mom dah panik. I plak soh dia chill hehehehe.

Sampai je situ, I terus check in (wah kau ingat hotel???). The nurse starting doing a CTG and the Head Nurse check bukaan. Dah dilated 2cm with irregular contractions. Time nie I rilek je lagik. Dah lepak dalam bilik kan, siap boleh suruh Nas amik lappy and on for me. I sempat wooo chat ngan Penol hahahahaha.

Lama jugak lah nurse tuh asyik buat CTG. Then she suruh rileks sampai doctor sampai.

Thats how on 20.12.2009 at 6.10pm, Syed Rafael Jansen was born…through caesar. Reason being so, his heart beat was not stabil. I dah dialated 2cm and my baby was forcing himself out tapinya tak dapat nak keluar sebab my pelvic bone takmo expand (ini lah padahnya kalau kurus sangat dengan pinggul yang kurang ada isi).

So at 5.30pm my doctor datang and said kena caesar to save the baby. Baby dah under distress. So under his advice I was up for it.

5.40pm I was pushed into the OT. Dr. Ajit yang sangat baik telah mencocok epidural di tulang belakang sambil I membongkok ke depan tanpa memakai baju pape. Iya memang akan jadik camtuh. Time tuh tak kesah bogel terlanjang bulut pun mo man tai janji baby dapat keluar dengan selamat.

I mintak numb separuh je sebab nak tengok my baby masa dia keluar. The put a shield kat dada I so I tak nampak process memotong.

Sharp 6.10pm on the dot my baby was delivered by Dr. Jaswant. The first cry I heard from him, I myself nangis. Dr. Ajit lap-lap air mata I then told me my baby is a darling. Kecik tapi panjang

While the nurse was cleaning my baby, Dr. Jaswant was stitching me up. Oh I baru tau rupanya dah takde aksi-aksi ngeri memotong dengan pisau tajam ek? Derang skang nie guna laser. Apa ntah, I tatau camner process sebenar. Then jahit pon dalam kulit so dah bila dah sembuh, takde parut. Hebat ek teknologi skang nie.

Ok so back to the baby.

Rafael weighed 2.310kg and lenght dia 50cm. Alhamdulillah yang selama nie I risaukan tak terjadik pon. Remember how worried I was if he had to be put in the incubator? Takyah pon. Dr kata baby sehat.

Wednesday, both mama and baby was discharged. Now my life has made a 360 degree spin.

Mama’s handsome boy 

Peeps, saya adalah sangat memerlukan bantuan anda. Jadik sesiapa yang singgah di blog nie tolonglah ya tinggalkan komen. Mak tak kesah ko nak guna anonymous ke anonymouse pon takpe, janji ada feedback.

Wahhhhhhhhhhh apesal ek cam serious je ya? Tak, tak, bukan apa pon…just need some info.

How much are you willing to pay for something like this? (tak kesah lah if you minat atau tak benda camnie)

Itu adalah batu-batu swarovski tulen di mana sebijik adalah semahal sebelah mata cicak. Hahahahaha ntah tatau apa kaitannya :p

So please leave me feedbacks. Akan aku doakan korang murah rezeki dan panjang umur, amin~

Lama kan I senyap je….hehehe jangan risau, I belum bersalin lagik lah although rasa macam nak je jerit-jerit suruh budak kecik nie keluar.

Ye, badan I masih keding walaupon sudah mengandung 36 minggu. Apesal ntah. Dah memang camnie kot.

On a more serious note, my grandpa passed away last week thus making me drop everything I’m currently working on and attend to the funeral etc.

Hari nie plak baru dapat berita my mom’s best friend meninggal.

*sigh* I just think there’s too many deaths this year.

Jangan risau ya kengkawan, bersalin je harus I update di sini. Please doakan semua smooth sailing. According to the doctor my baby small…kalau tak cukup 2.5kg, kena masuk incubator. Setakat nie baby I 2.1kg je. Come on baby!! Another 400 grams je, COME ON YOU CAN DO IT!!

I shall be back with my small project I’ve been working on.

Oh p/s : Have you checked out http://www.5577studio.com? Farah is sooooooooooooo easy to work with!!

Ye lah I tau dah lama I tak update. Mesti korang nak muntah darah kan, bukak-bukak je blog I asyik-asyik entry pompuan kacau suami orang :p

Tapi itulah, I still bengang ok. Suka-suki dia je ek, macam orang takde keje.

Ok nextttttttttttttttttttttttttt!

Actually skang nie tengah busy siapkan semua baju yang orang hantar tempah manik. Hello people, I have another 8 weeks ok till my due date jadik harus disiapkan serta-merta.

Oooo korang ingat I nie buta seni ek? I pandai ok jahit manik, nampak je macam tangan bangku tapi takkkkkkkkk :p

Wait…I nak update pasal apa tadik?

Oh pasal Nutrimeal. I ada testimonial dari seorang pengguna baru. Katanya dah boleh rasa peha-peha beliau kecik sedikit, malah suami pon perasan and memuji. Hehehe syok bukan?

Then sorang lagi juga pengguna baru katanya dah terasa badan ringan and lebih bertenaga.

Percayalah, walaupon sesetengah pihak mendakwa shakes adalah yucky tapi hakikatnya shakes adalah healthy. I buat strawberry ice blended dengan Nutrimeal vanilla hari tuh. Tak boleh nak describe betapa heavenly.

Oh haaa ada orang kata kan, dia tak yakin join Usana bawah I sebab I macam not making money. Katanya lagi I tak tunjuk pon gambar-gambar kejayaan dari hasil Usana.

Macam nie lah ya Cik Endot. Saya punya main priority skang nie ialah preparation untuk give birth dan menyambut bayi kecik lagik comel (hehe harus comel) ke dunia nie. Jadik harus I membuat kira-kira setiap malam seblom tido.

I’m not the type yang suka berhutang sebab nak ikot orang or nak keep up with the Jones.

Saya kawen pon semua cash kak, cash. Saya honeymoon pon semua cash. Kete 1 pon dah settle dengan cash. Hutang kad kredit yg melampuk seblom nie pon telah di settle kan dengan cash.

I tak kesah tak dapat beli bag Prada or baju dari Warehouse or kasut 4 inci Guess/Nine West or melancong ke Tokyo if it means I have to ikat perut.

Sila baca ayat-ayat nie berkali-kali sampai muntah.

Jadik if Cik Endot nak join business nie based on the way that particular upline spends, silalah kunjung ke blog rakan-rakan saya yang dah advance yang tak perlu simpan duit nak bersalin. Oh btw, takyah lah ukur success seseorang tuh base on kete BMW dia or rumah banglo 3 tingkat dia tapi ukurlah success orang tuh base on dia sebagai seorang manusia dari dalam.

Sekian terima kasih.

Lately, macam banyak plak masalah rumah tangga yang I dengar melibatkan pihak ketiga.

Recently one of my close friends tanya I apa nak buat since she’s got black and white proof yang husband dia main kayu 3. I cakap, confront je lah. Then she plak cam 50-50. Reason being so, she’s 2 months pregnant and she’s living with her in laws and she’s not working. Hmmm tersepit lah camtuh. Mana she nak gie? Nak balik rumah mak, of coz lah cam susah sebab she tak keje. Takkan mak dia yang tua tuh plak nak kasik dia and her baby makan kan?

Memang tersepit.

Before that I dapat tau yang ada sorang my ex-colleague is going through a divorce coz her husband nak amik 2nd wife. She tak nak bermadu so she naik mahkamah tuntut cerai. Yang nie pon quite a messy and not to mention pain staking procedure.

So lets come back to how it relates to me.

Few days ago, Nas showed me sms dari sorang perempuan. Claiming to be someone yang gie kursus sama-sama dgn Nas hari tuh kat Jelebu. Bukan main seronoknya minah nie ayat laki aku.

Yang peliknya Nas dah cakap he’s married and about to be a dad in like 2 months time but she mati-mati nak jugak. Siap kasik sms konon sudi berkongsi susah dan beban bersama-sama lah bla bla bla.

Hoh?

So I called her up a day after that. Ye lah I nak tau if Nas pon main tepuk-tepuk tangan amai-amai kan in this situation. Rupanya she je yang kenal Nas tapi Nas tak kenal pon dia siapa sebab dia tak nak bagitau nama penuh and dari kumpulan apa. So Nas memang tak kenal.

Masa I call her up tuh, she banyak senyap. I takde lah serang mana pon. Just cakap elok-elok je ‘Tak baik kaco suami orang. Dah lah bini kepada suami orang tuh mengandung 7 1/2 bulan. Nanti besok u dah kawen, u tau lah susah senang nak jadik isteri nie’. Camtuh lah I cakap ngan dia. Lepas tuh I letak.

Semalam…boleh plak minah nie call. Saying stuff like ‘akak kena faham lelaki ada hak dalam Islam untuk berbini lebih dari 1′ and ‘akak tak fikir ke kebahagiaan suami?’.

I dah…aik boleh tahan minah nie nak lecture aku.

So I said ‘macam nie lah senang. U nak sangat suami I kan? Boleh. Memula u bayar kat I pampasan RM50 ribu then every month u kasik I at least RM1500, boleh?’.

Tau plak nak menjawab ‘kak, suami bukan untuk dijual beli’.

I cakap ‘memang suami bukan untuk dijual beli tapi awak nie bermain-main seolah-olah perkahwinan saya nie boleh je dibuat sistem barter. Jadik saya mintaklah wang pampasan dan wang saku bulanan. U can take my husband, gie main jauh-jauh. Nak? Ada RM50 ribu meh datang jumpa I. The same day itself I bawak u and dia gie jumpa kadi’.

My question here is…best ke nak kat suami orang nie? Apa yang best ek? Some say security. Some say suami orang karisma lain. Some say lebih pengalaman.

My advice is…tolong lah ek. Jauhkan lah diri anda dari suami orang. Tak perlu lah nak kaco-kaco laki orang sebab setau I, lelaki bujang berkualiti belom lagik pupus.

You will one day be a wife and be a mother. When that day comes, I sincerely pray that you get to experience at least once where your husband kena kaco dengan perempuan lain. Then you ingatlah kat I and kata-kata nasihat I kat you.

As far as I’m concerned, perkataan kongsi atau bermadu takde dalam kamus I.

I’m a bit torn apart as to whether I should continue with my Masters or not. Macam…hmmm ye lah kan lepas habis pantang, I pon tatau nak carik keje ke, nak concentrate butik ke…nak jadik stay-at-home mom ke…

Tapi kalo pk-pk, ape kaitannya kan kalo I nak sambung belajar pon sebab whatever I choose to do after I habis pantang pon, tak salah kan kalo I nak belajar lagik?

Sorang yang I tanya, dia kata bazir je you belajar tinggi-tinggi lepas tuh nak jadik SAHM.

Sorang lagik…cakap go for it sebab knowledge is unlimited.

Personally I rasa, it’s not your career that defines who you are but it’s your knowledge that sets you apart from the rest. Ada beza ek SAHM yang lepasan SPM and SAHM yang ada bachelors degree in pape je lah.

So pendek kata…I think I should sambung belajar.

Yang panjang kata is what I want to do lepas I habis pantang.

Kalo keje dengan orang, most probably gaji tak setimpal dengan keje. Tapi dapat mix with people as opposed to mengadap 2-3 orang yang sama je kat rumah. Dapat pakai baju cun-cun (nie penting jugak ok sebab boleh shopping).

Kalo concentrate on butik…ok jugak but bak kata someone kat rumah…business tuh business jugak tapi at early stages, bukak kedai biar orang jaga. Sebab takde jaminan lagi. Ok fine! Whatever lah.

Kalo jadik SAHM, best jugak. Dapat ngadap baby. Tapi…financially macam tak secured ek? Cuma temptation tak nak keje tuh memang ada lah sebab ada duit Usana yang masuk tetiap minggu. Maybe I should learn knitting or something?

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I’m confused!!

I rasa I dah patut buat keputusan dari skang. Bukan tunggu baby keluar kan?

Or…apa ek?

Lepas tuh kan kalo nak sambung Masters, what field should I pursue?

Help?

Hari nie…tatau nak letak post nie bawak kategori apa sebabnya it’s a little about Usana and it’s like not really about Usana.

Semalam I dapat email from a silent reader. Dia nak remain anonymous and special request supaya I tak copy paste email dia. So, I respect lah her wishes. Tapi I dah tanya boleh tak kalo I nak ulas-ulas sket pasal her situasi and she said ok je.

Macam nie…she’s over weight. Menurut kata beliau…beliau nie dah boleh dikategorikan sebagai gemuk. And semua org sekeliling dia asyik merendah-rendahkan dia sebab dia gemuk. Asyik cakap benda macam ‘oh ko takkan dpt jodoh lah kalo gemuk’ or ‘ko takde sape akan nak sampai bila-bila’ or ‘ko akan jadik andartu lah gemuk macam nie’…

Masalahnya, she’s very happy with the way she is. She kata she takde inferiority complex what so ever sebab mmg dia takkan selesa kalo dia lose weight byk-byk. Macam not in her own skin lah gitu. Tapi satu jer her concern, she nak sehat.

Persoalannya di sini…boleh ke org over weight sehat? Masalah yg datang satu pakej dgn being over weight nie selalunya hyper tension (tekanan darah tinggi), sakit jantung and kencing manis.

No harm in trying kan? I dah advice her to control her food in take. Be realistic lah sket kan…nak suruh org givap makan something terus is keje gila. I nie pijak bumi yg nyata. In fact I takde langsung suruh anyone yg approach me pasal Usana benti makan itu, benti makan ini.

The main point here is food intake control. I like to call it FIC. Sebut bebetol, kang sebut salah lain plak jadiknya :p

Kalo ko seminggu makan char kuew toew sampai 5 kali…ko kurangkan lah. Makan lah 2 kali je. Kalo sekali ko gie mamak ko order beriani kambing satu pinggan penuh bukit…ko kurangkan lah. Order lah separuh pinggan je.

It’s all about control tau. Nothing can be stopped immediately. Itu dah cold turkey withdrawal method, which we all know very rarely works.

So back to the main story…kita cuba ya baby steps. She wants to be healthy without having to go through the whole losing weight process. I say we give it a try!

She has ordered Essentials + Proflavanol + Vit C, Nutrimeal + Fibergy (not to replace meals but more to help her cut down her food intake).

I say let’s do it!!

To you…I know you’re reading this…I’ll help you walk through this process ok. Give me your hand

Not gonna say much this time. Nie kat bawah ada 3 testimonial yang hebat dan panjang :p

If any of u doubt apa I tulis, silalah mintak ya email tuan punya testimonial and I willingly akan bagi. Manalah tau kot-kot ada yang di luar sana kata ‘eleh Ary mmg lah tulis best-best sebab dia kan distributor’. Jadik, kowang yang was-was, tunggu apa lagi? Sama ada kowang cuba atau kowang duduk diam-diam je lah hahahahaa. Isk kejam plak rasanya.

K  dah dah. Baca je lah~

Weight Loss

Salam Ary,

Kak Yana nak berkongsilah berita kegembiraan Kak Yana dengan Ary. Dah 3 minggu Kak Yana minum Nutrimeal+Fibergy dan alhamdulillah Kak Yana dah turun 3kg. Sebelum ni masa Kak Yana beli Kak Yana tak cerita kan yang Kak Yana sebenarnya pengguna HL tapi HL dah mahal sangat. Terpaksa Kak Yana stop. Lagi satu dengan HL Kak Yana turun 2kg SAHAJA dalam masa 2 bulan jadi memang Kak Yana excited sangatlah dengan Usana. Kongsilah dengan pembaca-pembaca blog Ary ok!

Masalah Migrain

Tekakak! Tekakak! Tekakak!

Hihi semekomz. Tekakak sihat x?

Ins.Allah sihat kn dgn bb lg tu. Ni ibu suruh bgtahu kat tekakak yg ibu dh xde migrain.

Blh dh bau vanilla essence, skunk xde masalah. Hari tu ibu mnm air nescafe abah sampai 3/4 teguk. Ok jer kata ibu.

Lps tu berbuka kat Stabaks. Ibu pesan latte fuiyoh! Xde dh sakit kepala ibu.

Erm Farrah nk mintalar tekakak tunjuk mcm mana nk buat duet tu. Ye lar dh nk cuti kan……….nk buat duet. Calling calling Farrah. Ok lar, roger n out.

Semekomzzzzzz…………….

Pregnancy

Dear Ary,

Sorry if I have been quiet for the past month of so. Schedule has been hectic like mad. However long time no news I now come with great news. I’m pregnant!

It has  been 2 weeks so far and I have passed the critical 1 week mark. I’m currently on 1 month leave as my doctor advises (due to previous 4 miscarriages). He said that this time the condition of my uterus is so much stronger than before.

I have Usana to thank for this. I need to stock up on my supplies as well.

I know it’s really too soon but hubster and I have already been looking at names! Lol. I shall keep you updated on my progress.

Thank you so much! Who would have thought the thousands of ringgit I have spent, I could have saved and used only a few hundreds to help me conceive and keep the baby! On top of that my pregnancy this time is acne free. Amazing!

See you soon.

Between both Nas and I, we have had about 14 credit cards from various banks. Every single one of them had credit balance on them. And every month we were paying more than the minimum. How did we end up being the people we swore we would never be?

Circumstances lah.

Disebabkan Nas keje jauh gila, every month he had to come home at least once, sometimes twice. Semua tiket yg dibeli, was through credit cards. Then there was the auto debit of misc stuff. Insurance for example. Then there was petrol.

Then there was the occasional shopping spree. Walaupon susah untuk mengaku tapi I kena gak mengaku that I spent more than what I earned. Dah kata akan control, nak control bla bla bla tapi hakikatnya masa swipe tuh mmg tak sedar pun. End of the month tgk statement then mcm nyesal je.

Byk gila barang yg dibeli mcm kalo pk-pk balik, bukan diperlukan sgt pon. Come on 2 blushers in a month? Siapakah je pakai 2 blusher sebulan? Adakan kau pelakon opera? Bukannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn so tak payahlah asyik nak beli season nie punya eye shadow, season baru nya lipstick. Season je pon…

So last week the both of us sat down and settled 12 out of 14 cards. We then decided to potong semua 12 kad itu.Tinggal lah 2 je. 1 utk kecemasan and most importantly utk digunakan masa bersalin nanti. The other 1 for me to use coz I  bila keluar tak suka bawak cash more than RM100 at one time. Pernah kena ragut sekali, cukoplah taubat.

I’m really glad that Nas enrolled me in Usana. Nampaklah hasilnya. Paling best, I’m healthy because of the supplement and on top of that I dpt bonus gak.

I’m all smiles…for now hahahahahaha. Another 3 more months to go and sangatlah berdebar-debar.

p/s : I’m still not happy with my blog layout…

Helpppppppppppppppppp I hate how my blog looks like. And this is a problem because I bukak je I dah tak semangat nak update. How ek?

Anyone? Ada ideas? Suggestions?

Tolonglah bantu wanita mengandung yg buta IT ini *sob* *sob* *lap hingus* *sob*